self-portrait aged 16
NO FAILURE
when to the dangerous confines of my mind
i find myself enamoured of myself
so pleased with this or that encounter
stand poised for some glory or disaster
which must follow a grandiose delusion of my worth
i must with grim determination
look to my faults and send a truer version of the
whole
to the command center housed in my skull (military
intelligence)
then, when i superimpose the negative, now
developed,
i count the failures, glaring inconsistencies, and
shortcomings
i am disillusioned and free to sense the urgency to
use what little force i have
with little or no expectation of reward, i find myself
in a smaller place
and the scale of spheres of being beyond my ignorant
laziness astounds me
but i am encouraged to redouble efforts from the
heart and entreat god for the power to do some good.
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