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the magician

18 Monday Jan 2010

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art students league, grand central station, meeting l.p., no more 'pot'

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the river and i

16 Saturday Jan 2010

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first step, lord pentland, the 'work'

copyright 2010 scott cumming

i did this to protect the title of my auto-biography, which will be "the river and i"

I knew I was a diamond in the rough. My future appeared to me in snapshot visions. It was unacceptable. All my experiences proved to me that this sailing craft had neither rudder nor navigator. I had no doubt that I was in the river of accident.
Consequently it became my need to formulate one aim. My aim became self knowledge. Without knowing how or why or even when it might come, if it were indeed possible and not just another myth to give hope to the suffering multitude that one might achieve enlightenment.; and what that meant was veiled by imagination and an egotistical grandiosity.

Well, I knew about the work. I had read all the books. I was convinced that gurdjieff’s ideas were almost perfectly tailored to my best understanding of what I would need to achieve my aim. So I called lord pentland.

From the horn and hardart pay phone on 14th street I dialed his office at Rockefeller plaza.

He answered the phone. :”yes?”

Me… “uhmmm hello…. My name is scott cumming and I would like to make an appointment.”

“do I know you?” he asked

“no, but I know a few people that you know.”

“who do you know?”

“bob Fitzgerald, Mitchell rudzinski, Julie verhees, john rothenberg, ron reniewi….” He stopped me there.

“o.k. can you come to my office Wednesday at four? I’m at number seven Rockefeller plaza on the seventh floor, British American …. Company.”

“At four? Thank you. I’ll be there..”

and that is how it all started, with one phone call asking for what I needed.

A Friend In Myself
John Pentland

Question: I feel this need to be trying things. Every day I have to be trying something and sometimes it seems helpful and at the same time it seems like I am trying to pry something open.

Lord Pentland: It seems to me the freedom which I need is not so much to be used up in trying things as in finding some sort of encouraging relationship with somebody else or something deeper in myself which will enable me, while trying these things, to remember why I am trying them. I am constantly trying things, but I forget what the grounds are for trying them, so if I come up with a result, it is not measured against anything. This trying comes from a kind of wish that wants life to be more stimulating, not a wish just to observe life as it goes by.

There are times when I want to make my life richer. Then I need a companion, a friend in myself who will help me remember how to contemplate this or how to try that. Without this companion I try this or that, but I get obstinate and I am going to try in the same way again. What I need is the ability to hear what comes to me alongside myself, as it were, rather than what comes to me either from above or below. It is not so much that I need to follow or be obedient or even to be pushed. I don’t have a strong enough will to carry out the instructions I do receive within myself; I know that I need to call somebody or get up early, but I don’t always do it. It seems I need a companion.

I am not so unsubtle as I make out. I do receive psychic messages. It’s because I have a very weak will that I regard myself as inferior. I don’t think the problem is quite so obvious as most of the textbooks make out.

So what kind of help do I need? I know that if I am on the highway and stalled it is very cozy if someone comes along and offers to push my car, but it is still better if they give me some gas and get me going on my own. It is not much use having a lot of people to work for you or agreeing to be helpful; we need something in the middle. There is something about our relationship in the group that needs to be both separate and enjoined. What we need is this ability to give my attention rather than to be actually joined. I have to come right in the middle. I need encouragement and I need a feeling that it is really true that if I don’t live today, I will miss a whole day.

and at this point in person lord pentland would nod his head encouragingly and say, "you understand? yes."

lord pentland
water color by joel voros …

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google phone

14 Thursday Jan 2010

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android, google phone, nexus

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cookies and dinners

01 Friday Jan 2010

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christmas, food, lamb, new years, prime rib, roast

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