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self-portrait aged 16

NO FAILURE

when to the dangerous confines of my mind

i find myself enamoured of myself

so pleased with this or that encounter

stand poised for some glory or disaster

which must follow a grandiose delusion of my worth

i must with grim determination

look to my faults and send a truer version of the

whole

to the command center housed in my skull (military

intelligence)

then, when i superimpose the negative, now

developed,

i count the failures, glaring inconsistencies, and

shortcomings

i am disillusioned and free to sense the urgency to

use what little force i have

with little or no expectation of reward, i find myself

in a smaller place

and the scale of spheres of being beyond my ignorant

laziness astounds me

but i am encouraged to redouble efforts from the

heart and entreat god for the power to do some good.