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self-portrait aged 16


when to the dangerous confines of my mind

i find myself enamoured of myself

so pleased with this or that encounter

stand poised for some glory or disaster

which must follow a grandiose delusion of my worth

i must with grim determination

look to my faults and send a truer version of the


to the command center housed in my skull (military


then, when i superimpose the negative, now


i count the failures, glaring inconsistencies, and


i am disillusioned and free to sense the urgency to

use what little force i have

with little or no expectation of reward, i find myself

in a smaller place

and the scale of spheres of being beyond my ignorant

laziness astounds me

but i am encouraged to redouble efforts from the

heart and entreat god for the power to do some good.