memxe asked a question following "the elephant
question" and it seemed like it would make a
post and an update even on my activities. …
energetically, this morning i had a fine breakfast listening to "the afternoon of the faun" by debussy and ravel's "bolero". it was so peaceful eating to debussy but the ravel made me start to gobble a little.
"eat like a king in the morning, like a prince in the afternoon and like a pauper at night." (adele davis, from "let's eat right to keep fit"
then will stretch a large canvas and do my
the days ahead are full. and the first of the
month is almost here.
happy birthday to me on sunday.
well, memxe, you are close. it was my father's
question which gave me a new understanding.
he was a well rounded and extremely well
educated and succesful man all his life. but in
the end he had no philosophy he could explain.
he was however writing a book when he died
called "the spirit of the law". but i think he
waited too long to write it.
but we always had long talks. so he gave me
when he died, my older brother threw me out of
the house, gave me all of the paintings that i had
given my father, my father's library and $4,000.
if he had understood our father's teaching, he
would have let me stay and would have helped
me succeed in washington state where he had
been living for thirty years. but he was stingy
and greedy. my father was never greedy and
he was naturally generous.
anyway, that gave me the will to survive my
wife setting me free and a ten year oddyssey of
homelessness. now i have a place and a
somewhat secure future with social security
only one year and five days off. then i won't
have to spend so much time just trying to stay
alive., with no health insurance and living on
$800 a month disability is really a little
but my father's indomitable spirit and efforts all
through his life is a legacy i will preserve and
try to pass on… if not to my children then to
other younger aspirants to a happy life.
yesterday i manhandled a nice entertainment
center structure into the jeep and finally when it
got cooler after the 11:00 news… nbc, i wrestled
the thng single-handedly past three heavy doors
and set-up all the connections i had had in my
this was so i could watch movies without
disturbing my friend bill who used to paint next
to me on the venice boardwalk. i had been
watching t.v. on my monitor because i stay up
late unwinding. he was homeless too and i got
him into my building.
but our bedrooms share a wall which may be too
thin. he complained vehemently one day. i tried
to watch with the sound down low; but i
couldn't hear anything and couldn't understand
the movie. so i watched on the monitor in the living room.
so, bit by bit i am getting things the way i want
them. when i get bookcases, then i'll need a
it's a good day and i am progressing