i am not the only one who is wondering.
i lifted this post from ricewood
The Nature of The Allmighty
Saturday, 17. December 2005, 11:19:32
Research shows, that more than 80% of the World´s population
believes in God. I have noticed, though, that amongst those 80%
there is a considerable dispute over the nature of God. Seems like
God has different appearences to different people 😉
Well, I am amongst those 80%. There, I said it. I am a believer!
Believe it or not.
It´s been like that all of my life on this planet. I have always believed
in God. But as most other believers I have had my doubts. You may
even say that I have doubted God´s existence at different times in my
life. But now I have become so old that I seem to start looking at my
life in retrospect more and more, and it occurred to me recently that
when I have had religious crisis, it has been at the exact same times
when I had to realise that I was not God myself, meaning that I
realised that I could not control my own life. In other words I have
doubted His existence at times when he appeared to be stronger than
Well, isn´t that odd?
yes that is odd… let's go deeper then. why stop there?
is there any escape from god's merciless game with me?
might i not have an aim which corresponds to the 'plan'?
if i really have choice, or pure freedom, if you will,what can i
change? what in other words is my highest possibility that doesn't
conflict with the 'laws of the universe'?